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| just wanted to let the kiwi know that i do miss him, and hopefully he will come to visit me soon... | | |
| i haven't written in this thing forever, yet a certain kiwi was telling me to update it, so here it goes: some new changes in my life. 1. i graduated college.. insert a jumping yay! here 2. i got a full time job at sta travel 3. i recently started an internship at an art gallery on la brea 4. i'm super tired and scared of my 6am-7pm long days starting next week 5. i'm painting new stuff and working on my artwork which gives me fuzzies inside. some new things that revolve around old things: 1. i kinda miss college and the close vicinity of friends and the freedom to see them whenever i wanted 2. i kinda miss the stress of cramming for a test rather than waking up and realizing i have to go to work.. to do... WORK and that the routine's probably gonna be the same.. FOREVER. 3. i miss all my buddies that i got to see over the last year and the ones i got to make that feel eons away.. ahem ahem*** ANDREW, and others.. that is all for now.. i can't think of much else.. except tomorrow's FRIDAY!!!!!!!!! | | |
| the holidays make me so retrospective, because, ever since post-high school they have never been a big deal to me. and ESPECIALLY this year, after having not been around my family or friends, i feel that i need even more that time by myself, to really embrace the feeling of being alone. but the weird thing is i just want the comfort of someone i've known forever, but without talking and a lot of exchange but just to feel their presence. i think i might go up to northern california for new year's. it might be nice to find one of my abroad friends who may be going through the same feelings as i am as we readjust to the reality that is our life, and at the same time, the drive by myself, will be very nice. i feel like i am being over emotional, because i do not see myself as a dramatic person, BUT, all my emotions are heightened and intense. i miss you, australia. | | |
| i'm coming home on the 11th of december. if anyone wants to hang out and hear my adventures in OZ, New Zealand and Fiji.. i would love to share. i've missed you guys so much. can't wait to see everyone! | | |
| i've been having these crazy dreams lately, all about people from home. i think i'm really starting to miss them. this adventure is mindblowing, not just with the people i've met, or the sights that i've seen, nor the mini-adventures that i've actually taken. it's such a weird feeling of wanting to go home to see everyone, to hang out with them and share all my experiences here with them, and yet at the same time, i never want to leave. i've worked hard to make the friendships here and learn a whole new way of life, a whole new routine. to go home, seems like it would just negate everything i've done here. it's like starting a painting, and then once you feel like you've laid out the composition, you're going to just sent down your brush because you just finished the background but you leave the foreground blank.
my heart lately has been in a whirlwind. i dont' really know what's going on there, it's just a complete mystery of confusion. just thinking about it, makes my brain hurt. it's funny with this, becuase i don't know if it's me, and how i'm commitment phobic or, if i'm not ready to be serious, or if these guys just flock to me. it's all in good fun, and it is probably a good thing not to invest in anything before i go home, because in the end.. i'm going home. it's weird because the way we live our life in australia, it's like we're never going to come back, but that's not entirely true either. i don't know. i just don't want to waste a drop and at the same time i 'm afraid if i move too fast, well, this trip will move just as fast at the same speed. it's weird. | | |
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